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sabotlours) wrote2022-01-17 10:57 am
sabotlours) wrote2022-01-17 10:57 am
Back in Chicago Yet Again
I have said my visits to Mom have been like riding a rollercoaster. Last visit in December I had Kitty with me and things were fine. We got Mom in the Christmas spirit and her caregivers were really working out. I planned this visit because airfares were really cheap and I could get her to the audiologist for a hearing aid fine tuning.
This is ending up to be a bad visit, however, since there was a threat of Covid hanging over the scene. The caregiving company called me and said that one of the caregivers tested positive and since she spends most of her time with Mom, it MUST have been Mom that gave it to her. I guess Mom had some visitors between Xmas and New Years and perhaps one of them brought it into the house. Mom was feeling sick so, of course, it HAD to be Covid. Her doctor, on the other hand, said it was probably just her chronic lung disease acting up.
Overall her condition looks pretty bad. She is weak and feeble. She is sleeping a lot and seems to be out of it most of the time. Her O2 levels seem to be dropping which is exacerbating the problems. I'm getting that feeling in the pit of my stomach of impending doom. Even talking with her doctor today she sounded pretty fatalistic in terms of perhaps this is the beginning of the end. The bottom line is that she is not going to get healthier. Her condition is terminal. There will be good days and bad days. What I have been seeing yesterday and today have been bad days. They are not pretty. My anxiety and depression are really climbing. It will definitely be a bumpy week.
This is ending up to be a bad visit, however, since there was a threat of Covid hanging over the scene. The caregiving company called me and said that one of the caregivers tested positive and since she spends most of her time with Mom, it MUST have been Mom that gave it to her. I guess Mom had some visitors between Xmas and New Years and perhaps one of them brought it into the house. Mom was feeling sick so, of course, it HAD to be Covid. Her doctor, on the other hand, said it was probably just her chronic lung disease acting up.
Overall her condition looks pretty bad. She is weak and feeble. She is sleeping a lot and seems to be out of it most of the time. Her O2 levels seem to be dropping which is exacerbating the problems. I'm getting that feeling in the pit of my stomach of impending doom. Even talking with her doctor today she sounded pretty fatalistic in terms of perhaps this is the beginning of the end. The bottom line is that she is not going to get healthier. Her condition is terminal. There will be good days and bad days. What I have been seeing yesterday and today have been bad days. They are not pretty. My anxiety and depression are really climbing. It will definitely be a bumpy week.